by Sian Ceinwen | August 12, 2021 | Jared
Dear Jared, It’s your birthday and I fucking wish you were here. I got this cameo from Mick Foley for your birthday in March a bit over a week before you died. My instructions to him were: “My brother (Jared) is turning 42 in August. He’s been a big...
by Sian Ceinwen | July 23, 2021 | Jared
Dear Jared, Am I meant to be okay? Because I’m not. Not a day has gone by that I haven’t thought of you in some way. I still cry every day, too. I honestly don’t know how I’m meant to do this, how I’m meant to keep existing with this...
by Sian Ceinwen | May 14, 2021 | Jared
Disclaimer: These are my personal thoughts and feelings on the experience of my brother’s funeral. I am not, in any way, intending to offend or upset anyone. So, obviously I’ve been very, very quiet lately. I won’t lie, even existing is a struggle...
by Sian Ceinwen | April 22, 2021 | Jared
Dear Jared, Shit sister alert! I haven’t been writing to you. I’ll be honest, my guy, I’m not coping. Like, not even close. My boss described me as “like a functioning addict”. I’m getting things done, but it’s obvious that...
by Sian Ceinwen | April 8, 2021 | Jared
Dear Jared, I was definitely optimistic about returning to work this week. I kept it together for the most part. As soon as I could leave, I did, and I’m not going back until Tuesday now. Last night when I left work, I took all those old slides with pictures...
by Sian Ceinwen | April 6, 2021 | Jared
Dear Jared, I went to work today. It was equally not as bad as I thought it would be, but also so much worse. I told everyone about what happened, but most of them knew, though they didn’t know you were my brother. Apparently, all of Perth was talking about you...
by Sian Ceinwen | April 5, 2021 | Jared
Dear Jared, It’s the fucking worst. It is. On Tuesday, it will be a full week since I saw you last. On Saturday, it will be a full week since you died. Time won’t stop for me. It keeps going. I can’t make it stop as much as I want to. When Kaleb...
by Sian Ceinwen | April 4, 2021 | Jared
Dear Jared, Words could never express how devastated I am today. I woke up in a world without you in it and I did not like it. I don’t know why I thought that it might be easier today. Every second that passes is a second longer that I’ve lived without you...
